You've made my day!
I've been attacked by internet trolls (for over 7 years) and I finally figured out that they're just people without hope, or ambition: They're insanely jealous of anyone possessing something they want, but can never have, lacking the wisdom and understanding as to why…..

My case of autism make me “EXTREMELY SENSITIVE” to tastes, sounds, smells, touches, and “especially” interactions to others (and I'm unaware of offending people too)!

For as long as I remember I was made fun of (all the time) by people who never understood me or never wanted too in the first place! Sense elementary school/pre-school to high school I was forced to take “special-ed. classes (AND I HATED IT SO MUCH) and I was harassed to the point I “from now on”  suffer from very blind fits of rage and strong cases paranoia (and I hold grudges to those I HATE the most)!

“Ione Junior high school” was “the WORST experience” in my whole life (in all the schools I took), “Ione Junior High School” was the only school I remember getting the “most detention at” (all because of the other kids harassing me in to trouble) “I got punished but they did not (and that's not fail at all), Ion Junior High is also were I developed my very personal problems/issues with “blond girls/women, Mexicans (or at least one with a very large nose “with wrinkles”), very old female teachers, having me P.E. shoes stolen/crime, “AND” other “SPECIAL-ED problem-ed people”!

In/at “Amador High School” “it was just as bad as “Ione Junior High School”, at Amador I had my launch tickets stolen from me, creative metals/welding class projects destroyed, my creative metals/welding class shows stolen, followed around school, rocks thrown at me, and “ONCE”  I even had my backpack stolen from me (it had 5 pencils, 3 pens, 2 erasers, and 2 PlayStation-1 strategy guides (one was Final Fantasy 7, and the other was Legacy of Kain: SoulReaver), together they cost about $50.00! In/at “Amador High School” I developed issies with fat people (I had a very fat teacher), female welders (I had a very bad female teacher), and crowed s of people,
even at college (in my first year) I was being harassed too!

I also have issues with cops” (I was harassed by a police officer “NOT once BUT twice, on two very different occasions and for no good reason too”!
Very nosy naybers (I was accused of trying to break in to others peoples houses on 2 occasions “witch I did not do”)!
Old ladies again” (once during a flee-market (main street sized garage sale) in my town, I was accused of stealing a toy car (which I did not do), she grabed me by the wrist and dragged me around main street during the free-market looking for a cop, after my innocents was proven, me and my mother learned that we can't trust the people around us anymore (I was but a child then)!
Certain family members: (my older blond sister used me as her personal slave until she graduated from college(what a fucking bitch) and her husband “my brother in-law” even threatened me he'd cut my throat open, bleed me dry, and throw my body into the wilderness (never to be found), sense then “I ALWAYS” lock my door at night “ALWAYS”!

And finally, the very rude, nasty, and or stupid authority figures: I can think of one person who was the “VERY” first person to torment me, he was a man of many crimes, sins, skills, and talents and his name is “Kenneth Lewis” or Ken Lewis for short! He was a man who said he took all kinds of drugs, he was a man who said he dranked all kinds of alcohol, and he was a man who claimed he had the most sex with all kinds of women (AND why do I know all this, because he NEVER shuts up about it, he ALWAYS tells to me about it “and I hated every minute of it”), he was “THE VERY FIRST” person to ever harassed me “EVER” (and after he still kept harassing me, everyone began harassing me ever sense)! He always claimed he worked as a cook at a restaurant, a construction worker, a delivery man, a trucker, and now he works at a golf-course “even after he left my mom for the third or fourth time AFTER hitting me in the face, WITH MY $500 GLASSES ON” (AND I still think he strangled me with that black belt when I was 12), But all I know is that he mentally torture me for nearly 16 years (and that was nearly five years ago)!

So you see, “I'm a very emotional and extremely sensitive person (very
impressionable at the time too back then)”,now I'm 27 years old now and
very badly mentally and emotionally scar-ed for life (I think?), I have
no car of
my own, I have no job to earn money, I have no home of my own so I have
to live with my mother, I'm all out of money now, I'm autistic, I have
anger issues, I have selective memory, I think I'm manic-depressive, I
truly believe there are people out to get me, and on
very/extremely/beyond rare occasions I have nightmares that nearly
kills me (one nightmare I was shot into space without a spacesuit and
nearly suffocated to death, and the
other I was being electrocuted nearly to death), I did have a few
nightmares about ken…. I really don't want to talk about!!!!!!!!

If you think I'm fucked up just tell me please???

it's the “they never shut up” part that really gets me burning with very blind rage!