The First Day of the Rest of My Life

On Monday, June 14, 2010, my 5 year old daughter started camp.

This freaking amazing, kid-directed camp where she can play soccer and learn how to knit and play video games and make HD movies, all on her own time, all in the same day.

This camp that’s all day, five days a week, all summer.

And then she starts kindergarden.

Facing this transition from a mom who was mostly-homeschooling, almost 24-7 with a kid for 5 years, to a mom with a kid in school sharing joint custody … I’ve been in this bizarrely calm, zen like state.

For the first moment in over five years, I have time.

For the foreseeable future, I have time.

Time to do my insanely long to do list, the huge brainstorm of projects I would like to create, all the admin stuff I’ve been putting off in my business and life, all the stories and ideas I have not yet written or videoed about. The new cities I want to explore. Aerial dance classes. Rock climbing & backpacking again. New food to eat and drinks to indulge in, hot yoga classes to try. Beaches to walk on. All of the everythings I’ve been setting aside on that huge list of “until.”

And … time for something else. Something I have been neglecting for years.

I have time to think.

Think about my business & my tribe. What people need, where the mission of living your truth is going, where I want to be in few months, where it is all going decades from now, how the little things I do now are infecting people, what we can do together to spread that change throughout our corner of the world.

Think about my life. What I really want, what I really need, about what are my opinions and beliefs about the world and how I fit into it, where I want to live, how much stuff I really need, who I want to spend time with, where I fit into their lives, what I need in my day to day life for me to be happy.

Think about nothing. Go for long walks. Sit and stare at the water. Close my eyes and listen to traffic or the white noise of people chatting in airports or museums or the Starbucks a half-block from my apartment.

This post is a signpost.

This post marks a beginning.

Of what … well, I have no freaking idea.

Yum.

The best adventures are born when you don’t know what the frak is going to happen.

When you open yourself up to the possibility, get really clear about who you are and the mission you are bringing to the world, create a space of time and quiet and peace, pack a bag, and take massive action when the most scary inspiration that resonates with your soul hits you in the face.

Or whispers dark seductions in your ear.

So stay in tune for what happens on this next year of living my truth.

I have no particulars about the deliciousness that I will be blogging to you.

All I know is that the ecstasy and the insanity all start today.

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